25.2.09
♥
the stack of hay
had them all calm
but I mowed
i mowed fields
i have mowed fucking enough
but i moved
the stack of hay
then begins to blow out the door
out into the field (i dragged)
a wagon of hey on a massey ferguson
'cause he gave in
and i slipped... fuck
i was first
and now rest here
with a folded cap
and now loll my head here, content
I fall to sleep often, guess what beautiful song it is.
23.2.09
sending a letter
To : Lucia Retno Astrini
I'm writing this letter for you luc.I just wanna say this 2 words : HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I'm sorry I'm late because I'm too busy with what I've done today. I hope you'll enjoy your 16,
and I hope you'll never grow old, and we'll stay together as a little kid, play together and forget about our life and all we do is just playing.
... I remember about your 15th birthday.
no, I can't remember it! because I didn't stand behind you! I'm sooo sorry I am not around in your birthday........ for last year and this year. bye-bye see you next time.
From : Marsha Rayfa Pintary
20.2.09
city voices
I've told you already.
Stop hiding behind me & following my footsteps.
18.2.09
oh no, A!
Cold affection
Thoughts we never could mention
One-word conversations
With all that we have now
Oh, I still remember that night in the park
When you held my hand in the dark
Over a blanket under the stars
We were in love
But look at us now,
Look at us now.
bi-ou-ar-i-di
too much laughs at school makes me tired, and now i'm just sitting in front of the monitor, and i forget to close my window and my door. wait a minute.
back.
i want to talk about my test. test is nasty, and makes me wanna pukeeeeeeee on my teacher's faceee!
this is the story began..
this morning i woke up at 6.30 am. and i went to school at 7.00 am. the class began but i was washed my face, still. i just washed my face, brushed my tooth, and took-a-chicken-bath(mandi ayam maksutnya). and surely i confront my biggest enemy, BAD HAIR DAY!
today i've got math test and chemistry test. and stupidly,
i forgot to study math in car, because my eyes still a half open and it couldn't open wider. and i decided to have a daydream. aaah how relaxinggg!
again and again, my piket teacher(maksa) wasn't intercept me in. i hope they'll never do that to me forever, amen!
naah, in math class, i couldn't study optimally because my soulmate named Panic was hugging me. and the test came.......
i can't do it........
even the easiest question................
even though i cheated.....
I SWEAR I CAN'T GET A GOOD MARRKKK!!
ARGH!
eh, how about my chemistry test?
it doesn't more than my math test, aa i just can't!
15.2.09
find a new way
hey! I've changed my background colour. now it's white! I'm kinda bored with that messy background. It always invites my melancholy mood. so, enjoy new background! eh, I almost forget. I've changed my title too. from "love is all you need" to "why are you looking grave?", I think I will change it again someday, depends on my mood. bye bloggier!
14.2.09
ending
ending
this will prove to be the real truth
in the worst of times
i'll be yours,
be yours, till...
12.2.09
...
I had such a night , come true
overhead , morning skies all for you
7.2.09
I am looking grave
"Your mouth is hiding
You've got smiling eyes
Softly dividing
What they see in your face
From what you feel like inside
Your mouth is hiding
You've got joyless eyes
Softly contriving
All the terrible things
That shook up our hearts enough"
5.2.09
innuendo
people always want what people can't have
searching
When will I visit to this step?
1.2.09
refreshing for a while
baru aja gua pulang dari retret. sumpah retret paling gapenting sedunia. smp gua aja yang kagak kaya-kaya amat dibandingin sekolah masih bisa bikin retret yang bermodal dikit. agak kecewa gue sebenernya. tapi gapapalah cari angin. gw kira anak labsky bakalan ada yang ganteng. ternyata.............. hm. pulang-pulang naik bis TNI ANGKATAN LAUT. lewat di depan lapangan softball abis nganterin anak labsky balik. you know gak sih gue teriakin lintang dari bis BHAKAKAKAKAKAK itu sumpah ngocol banget ngapain lagi gue kea gitu. dasar bego.
sampe rumah langsung disambut dengan masalah-masalah yang menghadang. gue males ceritain. besok besok ajalah. daaah!
daydreamer
i need my real love back
i miss him terribly
i know i can't have him
but it's okay
i just want to write down my emotion
argh if only i can turn back time